reminder to self: breathe

it's amazing how 36 hours 3 minutes can change your entire world.

i have to keep reminding myself to breathe. i find my jaw clenched and lungs full often throughout the day.

this road is far rockier then i had ever imagined.

breathe.

i have come to realize that promises can be broken by others then the one who made them.

my patience and tolerance levels are growing very thin.

i can't believe that any sane person would sign up for this. so what does that say about us?

breathe.

i am struggling to find god in this. i can't imagine the greater plan would involve this much pain.

i have so many unanswered questions. and no one has been able yet to ask the right ones.

i can't imagine this can go on. please. make this stop.

breathe.